viEnna calling - Euro 2008

---Euro 2008 comes to a close on Sunday night in Vienna, and it's Germany against Spain in the final. Spain can end a 44-year wait to be crowned European champions if they reproduce the same form in Sunday's final against Germany that they showed to beat Russia 3-0 in the semi-final on Thursday. Germany, in contrast, will have to play far better than they did in their 3-2 semi-final win over Turkey in Basel on Wednesday if they are to win the title for the fourth time.

There will be key battles all over the field, but the most fascinating will be in midfield between Germany captain Michael Ballack and Spain's Cesc Fabregas, who is expected to start because David Villa is likely to miss out with a foot injury. Despite decades of producing great players, Spain's only major tournament victory came at the 1964 European Championship when they beat Russia's predecessors, the Soviet Union, in the final in Madrid. Germany will also be hoping to end an odd sequence that has seen them win and lose finals alternately. After winning in 1972, they lost in 1976, before winning again in 1980, losing in 1992 and winning again in 1996---

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cuts like a knifE

"Knife....cuts like a knife....how will i ever heal....i'm so deeply wounded...."

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This song - by Rockwell - can visualize the feeling inside; it's from the movie "when a man love a woman". It's one among the best and slowest melodies i ever heard. I heard it the first time before a-decade-and-a-half ago and later couldn't get to listen to it in all these years. Oh memories, it now brings back those remembrances of mine i've been trying to forget.... Oh memories, my heart breaks deep inside again when hearing this song; oh memories, it's her that i am trying to hide. Trying to erase those memories would be like trying to get rid of black ink from a white rug. Though the stains may be removed and later be less in color, the shape of the stain still remains on that white carpet. It seems like trying to get rid of thoughts which are ready to being born in mind. It seems that this mind of mine has a mind of its own; once i know i can never unknow. I keep going back to the thought that i always assumed that relationship was on its way out because of those reasons, but i never thought far long enough to realize that it was because of something else which is a false feeling. I've told myself hundreds of time that breaking up is the beginning of new transition in life, but it's not easy for me to look at those memories in positive ways. If possible i'd like to challenge myself to lose those thoughts and to show myself how to actually be able to do it - taking advantage of breaking up; to discover myself as a new Me and to make me seeing myself in a whole new light. Right now, though, i just want to make the most of my experiences to be my learnt lessons as possible as i could. I just want to relocate my experiences as memories with visions of what it used to be and let it be just my past sadness and struggle.

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Thus, here i am now learning and taking advantages of it, experiences - and practicing my new Me. I do not regret any of my choices. In life, some days can be dreams and the other can be nightmares; I am part of all that i have met.... !

ROCKWELL lyrics

so wEak....

"It's going to be okay!"....this is a consoling sentence which is oftenly repeated from my remembrance; it keeps echoing in my head and keeps encouraging me to strive my daily well-being. I know i will eventually get past all of these unwanted realisms, but that's not where i am right now. Where the hell am i now? What the hell am i doing now? Why am i so frustrated at myself without a single day break? When will all my sadness, frustration and furiousness be no longer too much to bear? I can't stand myself anymore; can't stand with the amount of anger i feel toward myself each day for the reason that i have let it be my second, third, fourth until this hundredth - believing that it wouldn't be such immense; can't stand with the fact that i have reached the point where i can no longer be able to describe my feelings in words. I am feeling so weak again now; ....so weak due to the hint from my hard breathing chest telling me that i am going to get sick at this very next moment; ....so weak due to the reason that i stayed in the rain for hours - this evening; ....so weak cuz i aimed at washing those curses on me under those falling rain; ....so weak cuz i had to stay pretty long with those pouring rain to wash those tears that stain my face and those pains & memories that won't go away!!!!

friday thE 13th

~Thousands of issues are being thrashed in my head. I have been going through some stuffs that no one ever really wants to go through. I am still at a loss for words here; for what on earth i could say i want YOU to understand i more than want to get YOU out as much as YOU want it to be. I'm yet struggling here. I am feeling so anxious and having that same thought like YOURS about leaving them not to be involved. I more than know how that may traumatize them forever; this would be a devastating news. Please don't push me to explain all of this by getting too deeply into something that has been my very personal & secret scandal. One thing i'd beg YOU to remember is that YOU always have my back and shoulder - i'll use them harD~

open, cross and lEave?!?!

I was thinking all the while when i then wanted to let go and leave IT behind. Oh yeah.... i might have been slipping with that momentum idea of managing things with responsibility - figuring out that i should not have planned to leave IT; and I was in that case just stuck. But, just as i come close to getting things worked out well for IT, i see as clear as day that that momentum just doesn't always go as flowing as i wanted IT to be.
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Now here i am laying awake in the night clearing up my mind as well as re-making my decision to leave IT asap, blaming myself with that stupid momentous-thingy. I do not yet know if it is a good move, but i atleast know i could take another step by seizing those stupidity and feeling of sympathy of mine come to an END!!!!

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Let wait and see....?!?!

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it's hard to say goodbyE

A duet song, IT'S HARD TO SAY GOODBYE, between the 2 of the greatest artists - Paul Anka and Celine Dion - was released on September 14, 1998. I do love the song, the music, the lyrics and the theme of this video; the rhythm, furthermore, is indeed pretty catchy. This is another proof that stars are always stars. And i could sense there is more than enough romance in this song as well as in the person who posts this song here ;|

- Celine Dion Lyrics